Something Different

Nearly a month and bit a year ago, my first post onto this blog was created and put up for the world to see. A year later, I am in University studying a Film Production degree which is what I wanted to do! I am so happy with how my life has turned out even though there have been some ups and downs in my life, I have come out a stronger person and I have all the people who have supported me to thank. They helped me through this and push myself so I could go to Uni. It worked! So since I've been focusing on University so much, I thought I would take the time to write about a few things I have enjoyed and the things I am looking forward to next. 1. Studying the Thing I Love -  Being able to study something that you're so passionaite about is such an honour and I am so happy I chose Film Production. Even though it is film production, I have found my love of writing again after having to write a story for my scriptwriting class. I even have re-jigged what I want to be when I fi...

As I sit at my laptop writing this out, I still cannot believe I got into University today. I didn't really sleep well knowing that within 12 hours I could be celebrating that I got in or crying that I didn't. But as I woke up at 6am, I calmed my nerves and got ready for what I knew would have been an emotional day. As the time got closer to 8am, I was told Track was open. This is where I could see if I got into Derby Uni or not. I was so nervous. I knew I had tried my best but I knew that it could be the other way and I should have tried harder. I typed in my credentials and pressed enter. I covered my hand over my phone screen as I couldn't look. I was so nervous. Eventually, I uncovered my hand and saw I had got into Derby University. I couldn't believe it and I instantly started crying because I knew my best had paid off and even though I didn't know my grades, I was and am so happy I got into my first choice uni! I honestly can say that my life is star...

So some but not many people will know this due to me keeping it quiet and away from social media because I was told by someone "you'll put something on Facebook or Twitter about this" and I wanted to prove them wrong so I decided to wait a while and then write a blog post about it. When I was 16, I wanted to be myself and be independent so I made myself more mature and thought about decisions before making one due to my past where I had rushed decisions which would often lead to the wrong choice. Now that I am 18, I know the "big wide world" is scary and that going out there alone will be tough. Last Thursday, I was pushed to my limit where I couldn't stand feeling trapped and alone anymore and made the decision to leave home. It was a big decision, a really big one. I didn't know if I would come back or if I would ever see my guardian again because I didn't wanna be there if I was going to be treated like I was 10 years old. I'm going to ...

So this is a blog post directed to America. Dear America, Over the last 10 hours, I have seen two videos where men have been shot and killed by Police Officers. You know why that is?  I am not saying they're racist but shooting black men because they're doing nothing makes it look like racism and because white police officers think that these men will retaliate and assault them. The men that I saw in the videos had no weapons on them. One was on the ground, held down by a police officer and didn't seem to be struggling but the police officer took the matter into his own hands, put the gun over the man's chest and shot him. Since January 1st 2016, over 600 people have been shot by police officers (Souce: http://killedbypolice.net/). When will this police brutality stop? When will they realise that these police officers have no right to shoot people if the person is not retaliating against the Officer? These officers kill these people and then do not get charged f...

Over the weekend, we have heard that Christina Grimmie was shot dead at her concert in Orlando and a mass shooting again in Orlando at Pulse nightclub where over 50 people were killed. This has to stop. Gun control needs to be in place otherwise these attacks will keep happening in the future. It makes me think though, life is too short. Life is too short to worry about things. Do things that make you happy and that make you feel alive. Don't feel sad because something is over, feel happy because it happened and then find something else to focus on. If you focus on the good things, you will have a better life. Yes there will be ups and downs but getting out of the downs will make you a stronger person. If you lead your life on negatives you will not get happier and you won't find the positives to focus on. Take life by the balls and live life to the fullest because I promise you, you will find those things that make you happy and that make you want to jump up and down in jo...

It is that time of the year again where Exams start to control people's lives and mostly their grades. For me I have only one exam and yes that is not a lot but it is still an exam which I am very worried about. With exams, comes stress and with stress comes everything you didn't want to act like when having exams but I am going to give you tips about some things you can do to help kick exam stress in the bum! 1. Drink plenty of water > Drinking water helps keeps your body and brain stay hydrated and helps you concentrate. 2. Eat 3 balanced meals per day > Eating food gives you energy and gives your brain food for you to then concentrate and keep going for the rest of the day. > Make sure to have healthy snacks like fruit or oats will help to keep you going till the next meal. 3. Study Breaks > Make sure to have 10-15 minute study break after 40 minutes of studying. This will give your brain and body time to relax and get ready for the next 30 minut...

So I know I haven't posted a blog post since April and the last one I posted was about my depression. I have been very dormant due to finishing two of my subjects in school (Media and ICT) and because of that, I have more time to focus on my drama exam! Written work is something that is tricky for me as I am not that good at explaining things sometimes therefore it's a little harder when writing big essays. Especially when the sections are up to 30 marks each! But as I have now cut down on my work load, I am still finding ways to procrastinate and I know I shouldn't and just get the work done but over the past few weeks, my motivation really hasn't been there. I want the drive to do the written work, to be able to have the motivation to push myself to get better but it's not there. I don't know why maybe because of depression or anxiety of failure but it's very annoying. It is nearly the end of my secondary education and I can't say i have enjoyed...