Something Different

Well 19 days in and I can already say I am ill... I mean it wasn't a great start to the year but I am starting to do more for myself and become the happier person I want to be. Already I have filmed a new video and am currently editing it, my production company has already been asked to film a music video for a band and I am planning two holidays in the summer. I have the most amazing people who I know will support me so much through this year. I already feel this year is going to be amazing and even though I want to drop everything and travel across America, I know that I will be able to do that when I finish my degree and I am so excited to do that. I want to travel the world in time and I hope I can. Another thing is that my depression hasn't made me feel bad since New Years Eve and that makes me insanely happy. I am happy that I can do things without my depression getting in the way. I have started going to the gym and even though I am too ill with a cold to go righ...

It's less than a week till 2017? How did the year go so fast? It's Christmas Day tomorrow! Merry Christmas to those reading this! Let's be honest, it has been a shit year for all of us. We have lost so many amazing people: David Bowie Alan Rickman Sir Terry Wogan Frank Kelly (Father Jack on TV Series Father Ted) Sir George Martin Paul Daniels Ronnie Corbett David Gest Victoria Wood Prince Muhammed Ali Gene Wilder Leonard Cohen Fidel Castro and so many more. Some of these like Wogan and Corbett, I didn't even know about until last month. Knowing that these people who brought comedy and happiness into our lives through so many ways is so upsetting to see and really shows you that life is short and that this year has also gone so quick. I remember the day when Alan Rickman died. I was at school doing coursework for my final film in Media. It seems so long ago now. I have been through so much this year. Handing my final coursework in for Media and ICT and...

Nearly a month and bit a year ago, my first post onto this blog was created and put up for the world to see. A year later, I am in University studying a Film Production degree which is what I wanted to do! I am so happy with how my life has turned out even though there have been some ups and downs in my life, I have come out a stronger person and I have all the people who have supported me to thank. They helped me through this and push myself so I could go to Uni. It worked! So since I've been focusing on University so much, I thought I would take the time to write about a few things I have enjoyed and the things I am looking forward to next. 1. Studying the Thing I Love -  Being able to study something that you're so passionaite about is such an honour and I am so happy I chose Film Production. Even though it is film production, I have found my love of writing again after having to write a story for my scriptwriting class. I even have re-jigged what I want to be when I fi...

So some but not many people will know this due to me keeping it quiet and away from social media because I was told by someone "you'll put something on Facebook or Twitter about this" and I wanted to prove them wrong so I decided to wait a while and then write a blog post about it. When I was 16, I wanted to be myself and be independent so I made myself more mature and thought about decisions before making one due to my past where I had rushed decisions which would often lead to the wrong choice. Now that I am 18, I know the "big wide world" is scary and that going out there alone will be tough. Last Thursday, I was pushed to my limit where I couldn't stand feeling trapped and alone anymore and made the decision to leave home. It was a big decision, a really big one. I didn't know if I would come back or if I would ever see my guardian again because I didn't wanna be there if I was going to be treated like I was 10 years old. I'm going to ...

So it's a new school year but this time for me, it's different. This year is all about getting the grades to be able to go to University next year. To cherish the memories I will make in the next year. I've started this blog because I love to write and I want to be able to do this weekly. Just touching on what's happened in the week and what's made me smile. Over the past few weeks, I have been on a roller-coaster of emotions. A lot of them were not good feelings and although some of those still remain, I am happy for once. I am happy because of the support I have from friends and family when telling them the problems I have and will be facing in the coming months. It's quite hard when you cannot tell anyone what you really feel when they ask how you are. You don't want to tell them to bring their mood down but you need to talk to someone. But right now, that is over with and i am enjoying the life I have. I am getting help for the problems I am faci...