So some but not many people will know this due to me keeping it quiet and away from social media because I was told by someone "you'll put something on Facebook or Twitter about this" and I wanted to prove them wrong so I decided to wait a while and then write a blog post about it. When I was 16, I wanted to be myself and be independent so I made myself more mature and thought about decisions before making one due to my past where I had rushed decisions which would often lead to the wrong choice.
Now that I am 18, I know the "big wide world" is scary and that going out there alone will be tough. Last Thursday, I was pushed to my limit where I couldn't stand feeling trapped and alone anymore and made the decision to leave home. It was a big decision, a really big one. I didn't know if I would come back or if I would ever see my guardian again because I didn't wanna be there if I was going to be treated like I was 10 years old.
I'm going to Derby Uni in two months and I am so excited to go but since leaving home it has helped me to realise that this is real. I have finished school and going to start Uni this year. I didn't think I would have left home a few weeks ago. I made a joke to someone that I would leave when I turn 18 and now that this has happened, its weird knowing that this came true. I think back to a few months ago and how my life was. I was in school, finishing off my A-Levels and making the most of the time left I had with my friends.
When people ask why I left home, I don't say "oh it was just time for me to leave" or "so and so pissed me off". I left because I didn't feel it was home and I didn't feel I was treated right there. I wanted to be happy but someone was preventing that. I put on a mask around my guardian for 6/7 years making sure I did not show the real me. Whenever I made videos, I waited till she had gone out or she was our of the house away from where she could hear me. I couldn't be myself but now I've left, I finally feel a weight has been lifted off my back and I can now live my life.
I finally feel able to make mistakes and learn from them my way and be able to be myself around others.
If you are thinking about moving out, make sure you have somewhere to go, enough money to help you along and friends who are there for you but make sure you're gonna be okay. Don't leave because you're parents aren't allowing you to go on holiday in the summer instead of working. Leave because it's the right choice for you and you feel ready (make sure you're over 16 too, legal age of choosing to leave home)
Katy x
Now that I am 18, I know the "big wide world" is scary and that going out there alone will be tough. Last Thursday, I was pushed to my limit where I couldn't stand feeling trapped and alone anymore and made the decision to leave home. It was a big decision, a really big one. I didn't know if I would come back or if I would ever see my guardian again because I didn't wanna be there if I was going to be treated like I was 10 years old.
I'm going to Derby Uni in two months and I am so excited to go but since leaving home it has helped me to realise that this is real. I have finished school and going to start Uni this year. I didn't think I would have left home a few weeks ago. I made a joke to someone that I would leave when I turn 18 and now that this has happened, its weird knowing that this came true. I think back to a few months ago and how my life was. I was in school, finishing off my A-Levels and making the most of the time left I had with my friends.
When people ask why I left home, I don't say "oh it was just time for me to leave" or "so and so pissed me off". I left because I didn't feel it was home and I didn't feel I was treated right there. I wanted to be happy but someone was preventing that. I put on a mask around my guardian for 6/7 years making sure I did not show the real me. Whenever I made videos, I waited till she had gone out or she was our of the house away from where she could hear me. I couldn't be myself but now I've left, I finally feel a weight has been lifted off my back and I can now live my life.
I finally feel able to make mistakes and learn from them my way and be able to be myself around others.
If you are thinking about moving out, make sure you have somewhere to go, enough money to help you along and friends who are there for you but make sure you're gonna be okay. Don't leave because you're parents aren't allowing you to go on holiday in the summer instead of working. Leave because it's the right choice for you and you feel ready (make sure you're over 16 too, legal age of choosing to leave home)
Katy x
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