Something Different

Well another day comes and goes, so do people. With me, everyone eventually leaves. They get bored of me and just say "f*** it, she's boring. Let's find someone new". When you lose a friend like that, it puts your confidence down to the floor. No one ever wants to feel like that. Ever. I know when people don't talk to me it's because they're bored of me. They hate me because I'm depressed or have issues with my mental health. I am not normal. I do have problems and yes, I am trying to fix the ones in my head but how can you fix something that is so broken, most pieces have been lost. If you know me and you are reading this, I do have mental health issues. I do have something that in one second my mood can go from excited and happy to depressive and upset. Anything can trigger it. A message, a photo, seeing someone. I can't stop it, it just happens. You probably don't understand how I am but it's good you know that sometimes I'm down a...

So it's a new school year but this time for me, it's different. This year is all about getting the grades to be able to go to University next year. To cherish the memories I will make in the next year. I've started this blog because I love to write and I want to be able to do this weekly. Just touching on what's happened in the week and what's made me smile. Over the past few weeks, I have been on a roller-coaster of emotions. A lot of them were not good feelings and although some of those still remain, I am happy for once. I am happy because of the support I have from friends and family when telling them the problems I have and will be facing in the coming months. It's quite hard when you cannot tell anyone what you really feel when they ask how you are. You don't want to tell them to bring their mood down but you need to talk to someone. But right now, that is over with and i am enjoying the life I have. I am getting help for the problems I am faci...